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Thursday, 12 November 2009

  • what time cannot heal..

    I've been with my boyfriend for over a year now and its come to what it seems like the beginning of the end.
    I can no longer imagine myself spending the rest of my life with him.
    I no longer see him as the love of my life even though the is no other.

    However, I feel as if I cant say it...
    When I'm with him, I feel happy and satisfied but when I'm not with him, all the dreaded images and memories of his past flows through my mind and my conscious is then consumed with anger...

    After a long year, I am still unable to accept his past... not because I don't love him enough but because what he had done has hurt me too deep and there is no way that I can ignore the pain.

    What should I do?..

Friday, 22 May 2009

  • My bf is of the opposite sex and my bf hates it.

    Everyone has probably seen and heard this scenario hundreds of times in movies and generally just with friends, but unless you have been through it you actually cannot understand how incredibly annoying it can be!

    I first met my best friend around 4 years ago when I started my current job and I actually met my boy friend around a year ago at the same job. When I met my boyfriend, it was as I like to say.. love at first sight (which you guys can read about in my previous blogs).

    My best friend actually met my boy friend and I up and I've always been really greatful about it and thanked him regularly AND remind my boy friend of the fact.
    But, because my best friend and I are so close my boy friend always seem to get jealous, EVEN THO the fact is that he was the one that set us up.
    I constantly remind my boyfriend that nothing will ever happen between me and my best friend but the jealously never seems to cool.
    My best friend has a girl friend too and they of course at madly in love. Although the cliche movies say otherwise about the best friends never getting together thing. I actually will never fall for my best friend, because I could never see him like that. We practically watched each other grow up, in the sense regarding the whole growing up age from a child to an adult - losing the baby fact and maturing.

    What can I do to make my boy friend feel better about himself. I just have no idea so I really need some advice of some sort. I have seriously tried everything. I've actually sat down and talked to my boy friend about it all. I actually don't work with my best friend anymore because he got transferred AND I've tried to whole getting to know each other better thing because we occasionally go on double dates AND my boy friends seems to get along with my best friends' girl friend nicely. As in they don't seem to have arguments and stuff, just general chatting.

    Help me out please fellow datingish bloggers!!

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

  • When the 'EX' enters the arena..

    As you can see from my previous blogs, I am currently in a relationship.

    'In the beginning' (tacky cliche music begins) ... I wasn't too sure about this relationship which was when I began to blog about it and ask for advice.
    Now, I've been with him for 3 months.
    And, not long ago..

    ..the 'EX' Girlfriend returns...
    Heres the interesting juicy part of the situation.

    After dinner my boyfriend & I went to check out the moon light at this amazing place and because he was tired from work, he fell asleep (fair enough..).

    All of a sudden...

    I get a phone call from a number that I hadn't seen before. So, I answer...

    It's some random woman who has an extremely strong accent so I don't even understand...
    She's asking for him... so STUPIDLY enough... I wake him up and find out that...
    It's the 'EX'.

    What the fuck... how totally out of line... HOW DID SHE GET MY NUMBER?!...

    I found out... that she called the phone company of my boyfriends mobile number... and asked for some sort of contact list recovery thing?.. She knew the password or something.
    Is that not out of line?..

    There after, she continues to call him & he continues to reject the calls, refusing to answer. ( Good Boy!!!)

    I find out, that her Visa has expired and she wants him to 'sponsor' her by saying that they're in a de facto relationship so she can obtain permanent residency... wtf?..

    On Christmas Eve whilst, him & I were enjoying our night... she calls...
    On New Years Eve whilst, we were enjoying the wonderful fireworks... she calls... ASKING HIM TO GO TO HER HOUSE AFTERWARDS!! NOT CARING THAT HE WAS WITH ME!!!

    She made up some stupid excuse... like... I can't find my pants?.. Can you look for them and give them back?..

    She hacked into my boyfriends email & facebook to see who he was contacting and emailing?...

    And the most outrageous of things..
    Whilst, my boyfriend & I were on holiday overseas...
    SHE WENT TO LUNCH WITH HIS PARENTS?!...

    Tell me please... is this even.. sane?... What can I do?..
    After so much.. I know that I shouldn't let her get to me.. because thats just ridiculous.
    But, after she entered the arena... I found out so much about my boyfriend.
    So much about their relationship and I just feel like... everything he's done with me, he's done with her..
    I feel like... maybe I'm the fall-back girl.
    He already tells me that he wants to Marry me.
    Again, like my first blog - 'too much, too soon?'

    I need advice.
    I've told him straight out that one day I won't be able to take her shit anymore, and because of her I will have to break up with him.
    He doesn't seem to care as much as I do.
    His excuse is, 'I don't care about her, I care about YOU'.
    .. Sometimes I don't think he understands my feelings.. and it hurts.. ALOT..
    I've drawn the line.. and believe me, I always remind him.

    S.O.S.

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

  • What to do if it all ends?

    I'm in complete fear.

    In the relationship that I am in at the moment... It feels like it's completely too good to be true..
    I'm scared that it will end, not because there's any problems or issues... but because..
    it's all too good to be true... seriously...

    The way we met and the way we started... was completely like a fairy-tale.
    But do fairy tales really exist?..
    What defines a fairy tale?.. The fact that it seems all 'too good to be true'?...
    Is that it?..

    What if my relationship does end?..
    What do I do afterwards?.. Can we still be friends?..
    In this stage of my relationship, I believe that if we did end..
    We could be great friends... we already know so much about each other..
    but the idea of being great friends.. that would have to depend on the reason
    why we break up right?..

    I don't even want to think about it.. but... can someone please tell me?..
    When you broke up with your boyfriend/girlfriend... did you stay good friends?..


Monday, 20 October 2008

  • Too much, Too soon?

    I've been going out with my man for a little over 3 weeks now...
    but what surprises me is his commitment and his love for out
    relationship and myself.

    But, I'm really confused... is this just his way of showing how
    much he is actually in love with me... or is this a case of an
    extremely clingy man?..
    Don't get me wrong.. but I love him.
    I just want an opinion and some advice, some... re-enforcement...
    someone to tell me that I made the right choice.. or someone
    to get my head out of the gutter and tell me to move on.

    Things he has done for me:
    1. Brought me an expensive necklace within less than a week of our relationship
    2. Met most of his friends
    3. Spends all his free time with me.
    4. On the 3rd day of our relationship asks if I would like to go on a holiday with him...soon. When I give him the slightly suggestion that there is a possibility.. he begins planning...
    5. I've met his sister...

    There are a few others... but I just feel slightly guilty blogging about him...
    So please... give the info that I've written, can someone please give me some advice?!